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March 5th, 2020
07:45 pm - Welcome one and all!
Welcome to my livejournal friends, enjoy your stay!
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July 12th, 2009
03:05 am
Winter's in the air and the wind it stings like ice, or
Maybe those are just the tears freezing in my eyes. I
Wish I could see you and tell you nothing's changed.
The God you once loved with all of your heart
Stayed the same, stayed the same, stayed the same
But I'm still sleeping...
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July 10th, 2009
01:43 am - Inspirational quote of the day!
A man grasps his mistakes. He lays claim to who he is, and what he was, whether he likes them or not.
Current Music: nuttin
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November 11th, 2008
10:33 am - It aint me, it aint me; I aint no fortunate one, no
Apathy how much I hate that word, how does someone feel apathy? But it seems at the moment I may actually be experiencing it. I feel like I'm locked in a dead end job with no hope of finishing school and that I will never over come my debt that i have. And of course the dating scene is one thing I am definitely over. If I go out on another bad date it will be too soon. But back to the apathy I find myself without drive and it really is starting to get at me. I just feel sometimes that everyone is moving forward while I moved two steps backwards. I know I will pull myself out of it, its just that I can't seem to shake it.
I need to get myself out of Jacksonville and go have some good fun, maybe a random trip somewhere, to where I am open to some ideas
Yeah these are just random thoughts, no need to worry!
Oh yeah good to see you back Matthew, and yes Boss and the other lol does miss you!
Current Music: CCR - Fortunate Son
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August 7th, 2008
09:03 pm - Fate? Or something better? I couldn't care less, Just stay with me a while...
I can across this the other day and thought that this was very interesting, and I believe it whole-heartedly. Do you?
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant .
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
Author Unknown
~C~
Current Location: Work
Current Mood: working
Current Music: Incubus - Anna Molly
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August 6th, 2008
12:34 am - The grand facade, so soon will burn, without a noise, without my pride, I reach out from the inside
Random Thoughts
-Sean Hannity is a Irish Wussy (Yeah I said it, I'm a Conservative but he just annoys the hell out of me lately)
-I've been giving into insomnia too easily the last couple of nights. Probably because I miss Megan with her back home this week. And speaking of her, I am totally missing her right now.
-I feel like going to the mountains next week, Megan recommended Mt. Pisgah. So I think I may venture up there Thursday and Friday. Not sure if I can get other people to go, but I wouldn't mind a little time to myself either.
-I'm tired of school, but atleast the semester is ending and moving a whole lot closer than Orange Park. That's change that I want to believe in, lol.
-I have to learn not to spend so much money on eating out, frivolous stuff, booze etc. I've got to buckle down and save alot more than I've been.
-I had a strange dream the other night, kind of made me want to reevaluate what I do with my spare time and to get out there and live alittle (kind of the opposite of saving I suppose, but I'm sure there is a happy medium somewhere).
-Also speaking of insomnia, I picked up my bass for the first time in like 3 months, I so need to buckle down and practice alot more.
That is all for now, I forgot how I like writing in this journal
~C~
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Ben Harper - In Your Eyes (Acoustic Cover)
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July 22nd, 2008
02:28 am - Having her on my brain's like getting hit by a train
Zoey has been bouncing around the room for about an hour chasing a fly. She just caught it and ate it, ridiculous dog...
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Old-97's - Timebomb
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July 17th, 2008
05:30 pm - you will stumble onto some lost fool in need and you can save each other for happily ever after
Its funny how most of the time when people are posting in this they are suppose to be working... Yeah I'm one of those people. Anyways I figured I would start staying up to date with this journal for the time being.
Anyways the cats have seem to have settled down at the house which is good, though Zoey does still have a tendency to be in their face, poor dog, lol. Anyways they are getting along for the most part.
In other news, classes have been going pretty good, just 4 more weeks till i'm done with this semester and then they are moving the campus over to belfort. Much much closer than Orange Park and a whole lot easier on the wallet.
Let see, things of course are still going well with Megan, we watched the bucket list last night, it was a good movie. But anytime just hanging around here makes my day that much more enjoyable.
Anyways gotta get back to work
Current Mood: good
Current Music: Chuck Nash - Mystery
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July 13th, 2008
05:17 pm - Every minute is arranged, Every moment lasts a day, But thinking about it can't help me let go
I have not written in this thing in ages, it seems like it really is just once a year.
School is going well, and for the people out there that read this that I don't talk to all the time I have earlier this year started school at ITT tech, yup a total dork here. Work has been interesting the last few days, one of our most liked managers was recently fired (note the sarcasm).
Speaking of work I'm still here and I am so ready to go home, my buddy Matt is moving up to Pittsburg with his fiance and I agreed to take in their two cats. I am actually kind of excited to see them, luckly they have grown up around dogs, because lord knows Zoey is so gonna be in there face when she gets the chance.
In other news I have recently started dating this amazing girl Megan, totally dig this girl. Fun to be around, good to talk to, totally a caring and genuine person. And of course just holding her in my arms makes me happy.
Well that is my status update for the year, catch yall in 2009, lol
Current Location: Work
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Jimmy Eat World - Let It Happen
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September 10th, 2007
05:20 pm - Giant Woes!
Last night was a tough night for the Giants, not only leaving Dallas 0-1 after the highest point match up between the tow teams rivalry, the injury bug continues to hit the Giants. Defensive end Osi Umenyiora and the thunder to last year's lightning Tiki Barber, running back Brandon Jacobs suffered knee injuries. Cornerback Kevin Dockery has an ankle injury, and the biggest setback happened in the 4th quarter, quarterback Eli Manning found himself thrown-down to the ground on his throwing shoulder during a sack on a failed attempt at a 2pt conversion. Eli continued to play one more drive and found Plaxico for their final touchdown in the 4th quarter. It was after that drive that Eli decided it was better to live another day to prevent anymore damage to his shoulder.
Upon first speculation, it was just considered to be bruised shoulder, however I just heard on good old Sportscenter, that his MRI has been completed and that he may be dealing with a slight seperated shoulder. With this injury, Eli could be out from 1-2 months. Now this is still a rumor, but if its real, the Giants are going to be a tough situation for those 2 months. After last nights game, it is apparent that the defense is not the Giants strong suit and will most likely not get them through the next games without Eli. So what does that mean for the Giants, well it means they are going to have to look at the replacements. Unfortunately their second & third string quarterbacks have yet to play starter in the Meadowlands. So with such unproven talent behind Eli, what could than mean for the team until the younger Manning brother returns? Well, the giants could look outside for a possible substitute. Here are the names that have been thrown around today regarding possible solutions.
1.) Former quarterback for the giants, Tim Hasselbeck. In May 2005, the New York Giants signed Hasselbeck to be their backup for QB Eli Manning. While he is regarded as strong-armed and athletic, he has a mediocre 63.7 career passer rating. Hasselbeck, however, has not thrown a pass in an NFL regular season contest since the 2003 season with the Washington Redskins. On September 1st, 2007, Hasselbeck was released by the Giants.
2.) The second name is none other than Tampa Bay's recent acquisition Jake Plummer. With Plummer's recent decision to choose retirement rather than play for Tampa since his trade from his former Denver Broncos. But as of this post, he has yet to officially turn his paper work into the NFL regarding his status. Plummer last year, started the first 11 games for the giving the Denver Broncos before head coach Mike Shanahan decided to hand a 7-4, presumably playoff-bound team over to a rookie quarterback. Those who viewed Plummer as inconsistent heralded the change as one that would revive the Broncos struggling offense; others claimed such a move was a poor choice, especially given that Plummer had guided the Broncos to the AFC Championship game the year before.
3.) Now Jacksonville fans may be familiar with this last option. Non other than former jaguars number 7 Byron Leftwich. After a highly successful training camp but disappointing pre-season during which his backup excelled, Leftwich was displaced from the Jaguars roster before the first game of 2007. David Garrard was named the starting quarterback for the Jaguars on August 31, 2007, with the team stating that Leftwich would be either cut or traded. Leftwich was cut on September 1, 2007, making him a free agent.
Even with this possible substitutes to fill the role until Eli returns if this rumor turns out to be true, this is the last thing the Giants need right now.
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March 5th, 2007
07:55 pm - Boredom
I never post anymore, anyways I think I have come to the conclusion that I will move back up to new england in about a year. After I manage to get myself out of debt and finish school, or at the very least obtain a job up there.
As to where I would live in New England, I think I would end up either in on of the following places, Fitchburg MA (Went to my first year of high school there, nice size city with an abundance of sales jobs) or Nashua NH (Largest city in New Hampshire another promising place, also NH has no sales tax but hefty property taxes, if I were to buy a place up there it would be pricy).
Just a thought, who knows what will happen in a year, maybe I'll even have an update before then.
Current Music: Dave Matthews Band - Dreamgirl
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September 24th, 2006
03:06 pm - Football!
Wooo!! portable TV's are awesome, i can watch football when I'm suppose to be working. Shazaam! Go Giants!!
Anyways things have been pretty busy for me, its only week 4 of classes and I already have 2 midterms this week. How the hell is that possible? Hopefully with me studying my butt off, I'll ace them. As for work, things were slow most of the week, but I've been kicking arse all weekend.
Surfing was sweet yesterday, it was choppy but then I'm still learning so I need all the practice I can get. Oh and yesterday get this, some guy was siphoning gas out of my truck. And the funny thing is that he was irritated that I had him put it back.
Anyways I guess back to work and football
Current Location: Work
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Jaguars vs. Colts in the background
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July 6th, 2006
11:55 pm - Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend, Somewhere along in the bitterness
Been awhile, well lets see whats ben going on. I quit my job at jax a couple of months ago, then went to work for nextel. I've been there for a little over 2 months and now I'm running my own store (they must be pretty desperate huh, lol). As for everything else I'm barely making my ends meet financially, but I'm gonna manage. I actually have an interview with The Lending Group, if I get this job I'll be making the money I was making at jax but I won't have to work 70 hour work weekends, and best of all weekends off. Fucking Sweet.
Anyways as for other things, saving money for college next semester, soon to be moving out of this house and into something a little nicer and maybe (maybe) near the beach. I guess thats really all to report.
Peace
~C~
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: The Fray - How To Save A Life
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February 6th, 2006
01:39 am
Man Jerramy Stevens should not of been running his mouth all week, Porter is right he is soft. What a lackluster game that was, I really expected alot more from both teams.
Jeez another 8 months before football again. Poo!
~C~
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February 4th, 2006
07:07 pm
If I can't have Tiki in the super bowl, I can at least have shaun alexander. LETS GO SEAHAWKS!! (sorry Cmar)
~C~
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November 14th, 2005
11:23 pm - What have I become... If I could start again... I would find a way
Johnny Cash - Hurt (originally performed by NIN)
I hurt myself today
to see if i still feel.
I focus on the pain,
the only thing thats real.
The needle tears a hole;
the old familiar sting,
try to kill it all away,
but I remember everything.
(Chorus)
what have I become,
my sweetest friend?
Everyone i know,
goes away in the end,
and you could have it all:
my empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt.
I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liars chair:
full of broken thoughts,
I cannot repair.
Beneath the stains of time,
the feelings dissapear.
You are someone else,
I am still right here.
What have I become,
my sweetest friend?
Everyone I know,
goes away in the end,
and you could have it all:
my empire of dirt.
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt.
If I could start again,
a million miles away,
I will keep myself,
I would find a way.
Current Music: Johnny Cash - Hurt
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October 20th, 2005
12:27 pm
I'm not sure, but I'm begining to think I should clean my desk up, what do you all think?
I should get back to work :)
~C~
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Barenaked Ladies - Shoe Box
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October 11th, 2005
08:54 pm
What a long weekend I had, its Tuesday and I'm still beat. But anyways, the other day my partner that works in my office managed to get himself fired for drinking on the job. Now I get to do his work too! YAY! I"m so tired of working in food & beverage. And on another note, I really thought I would get a call back by now from ADT. Todd & I both applied on the same day over a week ago, and he has already gotten 2 calls back and has an interview. Oh well if it doesn't go through then I won't worry about and just keep looking elsewhere.
Now back to work
~C~
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Hoobastank - Crawling in the Dark
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October 4th, 2005
07:03 pm - My life has seen changes through the years, Times changing, Memories fade, it's all clear
Rainy days are awesome, quite relaxing. Though, too bad I can't quite go up to the roof tonight, but Oh Well
Hope everyone's day is going well
~C~
Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: Side Walk Slam - Time Will Pass You By
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October 3rd, 2005
10:58 pm - Looking ahead for the first time that we could drive, Out on our own, To speed away
If you hadn't noticed, I have decided to change my LiveJournal name to newinceptions. I have done this basically because I'm gonna make my life a new beginning, rather a NEW INCEPTION!
That is all for now
~C~
Bye Bye, relientone
Current Mood: good
Current Music: Story Of The Year - Sidewalks
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October 2nd, 2005
12:14 am - Enlighten me, reveal my fate. Just cut these strings that hold me safe.
Fun day, nothing like a good kegger to get you over a devastating lost which the Gators encountered today. But it was good to catch with a few people that I haven't seen in ages. Anyways off to another one! Yay alcohol!
~C~
I know I should feel bad for Prothro for that sick ankle break, but they were beating us so badly today. Ha Ha Alabama
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Breaking Benjamin - Follow Me
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September 30th, 2005
12:01 am
20 years ago ... (1985)
1. was 2 years old
2. was crapping and burping, and making unintelligible conversation
3. got my first dog Brutus
10 years ago ... (1995)
1. My dad lost his job, and we moved to New Hampshire
2. was a band geek
3. picked up snowboarding
5 years ago ... (2000)
1. got piss assed drunk for the first tim
2. I shaved my head for the first time
3. went to my first warped tour
3 years ago ... (2002)
1. I became good friends with Josh
2. my mom battled cancer
3. first saw dave matthews live
1 year ago ... (2004)
1. I moved out into an apartment
2. became "management" at work
3. got my second dog, Zoey
So far this year ... (2005)
1. Moved to Gainesville, then back to Jax in 3 days
2. Moved into a house, and had many keggers
3. lost my virginity
Yesterday ...
1. went to class late, thanks to an accident
2. got out of work, to chill and relax
3. smoked out with Josh & Chris and some guy named Sean
Today ...
1. woke up late for work
2. finished cleaning up my room (lets see how long it lasts)
3. did some laundry
Tomorrow I will...
1. go to class & work
2. have to do end of the month inventory at work
3. hopefully get out early enough to consume large amounts of alcohol publicly
In the next year I will...
1. maybe will be done with UNF
2. get out of the food & beverage industry
3. still be crapping and burping, and making unintelligible conversation
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Thousand Foot Krutch - Absolute
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September 28th, 2005
11:29 am
Free internet at UNF is a great thing
~C~
Current Mood: good
Current Music: chatter of college students
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September 6th, 2005
11:34 pm - Damn Phone
My Phone has managed to eat all of my contact numbers, so i have to start back at square one. So if were friends you'll give me your number again right? And if we don't know each other real well, then what better way to become pals.
Eh Later
~C~
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August 27th, 2005
02:34 am
Funny I have never really thought about this till now, since getting my cd clock radio about a year and a half ago, I have had the same song on the same cd playing to wake myself up every morning Lit - Ziplock.
Ok so here's a question for all of you out there, I want a new song. So what should it be?
Any ideas?
~C~
Current Mood: contemplative
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August 15th, 2005
04:30 pm
Tis official, the stang is dead. It ended up throwing a rod earlier today. Freaking awesome, though I have been going over my financial situation, it seems I might be barley able to afford a new engine if i pull in all of my rescources, one being taking a loan on my 401K. and I thought I was in the hole before, HA!
~C~
Current Mood: irritated
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August 7th, 2005
04:41 pm
I love the feeling I get after I go running, just a good sense of accomplishment
~C~
Current Mood: tired
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August 2nd, 2005
01:13 am
Tonight I had a blast, for the 5th night in a row, i've been hammered off my ass. Tonight me Todd & Scott started out at mudville splitting a few (ok, not to be modest, alot) beers and then we proceeded to go down to Jackrabbits where we caught Mark's band (one of many) Evolemo. Fantasic band, I highly reccommend checking them out. So I believe tonight was quite a successful night.
Goodnight for now
~C~
Current Mood: drunk
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July 31st, 2005
02:38 pm
Drinking can be quite fun, but for now its off to work.
~C~
Current Music: Dropkick Murphys - Kiss Me I'm Shitface
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04:22 am
I probably should call samantha atleast once while i still have a chance, after a week and a half I will probably never see her again, unless i can reconcile a friendship out of this mess i got into.
First thing tomorrow
~C~
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Eric Clapton - Blue Eyes Blue
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July 20th, 2005
09:16 pm
I will never smoke the reefer again. I have no idea what I smoked the other night but it got me to the point I freaked out, and this was one hit off of a water bong, damn afghan. It was so weird, I was sitting there having a good time enjoying the buzz, and then something popped into my head that pissed me off, and it all went downhill from there. Next thing I knew I could focus on anything and I felt like I was gonna die. It scared me shitless
Fuck drugs, I am done, its not worth it
~C~
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Silence @ work
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May 29th, 2005
03:34 am - When we all fall down it will be too late, Why is there no reason we can't change
I know the last entry I posted I was talking about my good friends and their lives, and one day I will finish that post, but not right now. Anyways I have to admit I do miss waking up with that special someone, other than that I'm good. Oh yeah how about this, i found out today John isn't getting transfered to Seattle, that is fucking awesome but it just threw our roadtrip into the air.
Regardless I still wanna make it. Even better since there is no predetermined destination. Yeah! Oh and Tucker draft is quite delicious, plus my boss is hot Damn Alcohol!
~C~
Current Mood: drunk
Current Music: Sum 41 - No Reason
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May 5th, 2005
06:24 pm - As we go on, we'll remember all the good times we had together
I've been wanting to get something down into this journal for a couple of days now, but I haven;t really came up with anything really thought provoking, Till today, ready on
Here is a bit of a recap, me and Samantha did break up, it was a mutual thing, there wasn't really any chemistry there, and our personalities kind of clashed instead of meshing together, but nonetheless I will always care for here and consider her a close friend.
Ok with that out of the way, today I have been doing alot of thinking. Its been 4 years since I graduated high school, where do I find myself. Well for one I'm still in school instead of graduating college (5 year plan, woo!), I'm still at the same place I worked 4 years ago, I had a tragic loss in my family, my brother turned his back on me and my family yet again, lost my virginity, I moved out on my own, got a dog, and made some great friends along the way. These last 4 years had quite a few really low points and then some good high points. So the point that I'm getting about is that where does this fall into the stereotypical college student persona, it doesn't. And to be honest there really isn't such a thing, everything that is portrayed in movies and tv and media and books are atypical. Life doesn't happen like it does in the movies.
There is something different about each and everyone of us, and because I'm bored at the moment I think shall tell you a bit about some of my really good friends
1.) Sorry Matt your first, Anyways a good friend of mine Matt found himself a scholarship coming out of highschool to go to Embry-Riddle, now while his first semester didn't go as well as planned he stuck around for another semester, but unfortunately Matt went thru alot of bullshit with one of his roommates that took up alot his time, including him moving out of his original dorm. so after his second semester Matt came home and attended the Glorious UNF and FCCJ campuses. Matt became very dedicated to getting himself into the University of Florida. And he did just that. He also had quite a few good column's in the student newspaper, (good reads check them out). Now Matthew finds himself a Gator Alumni and I wish him all the luck in the future. Goooooo CMAR!!
2.) Melanie is next, Melanie a good friend and fellow New Yorker (even if she is from South Canada, Syracuse) she was someone that I had the pleasure of working with back in 2003 at JGCC and at AT&T Cellular sales during the Winter of 04. Anyways she too started her college tenure at Embry-Riddle. After her freshmen year she decided that it wasn't the place for her and packed up all her stuff and made her way here to Jacksonville to attend UNF, she then decided to spend a semester over in France and is soon to graduate this summer and move to Denver with Samantha to make a new start. Melanie has always been able to do that, pick up everything and just move, and I give her alot of credit for that. And to her I also wish her great fortunes ahead, but knowing her she doesn't need luck.
3.) My present roommate Chris. I went to high school with Chris and new him since my junior year, a really good guy and a very outgoing person. After graduating high school he did what alot of us did and decided to attend FCCJ and get his AA and then transfer to UNF. Chris originally planned on going on a religious mission back in 2002 but decided that his heart wasn't in it. After that term was over he returned to school and got his AA and moved on to UNF and is currently clos to getting his BA in Advertising. With a personality like his he will go far.
4.) Josh, where do I begin. Josh is my best friend. I first me him when I worked at Hidden Hills, to be honest I didn't really get to know him until I quit that job. About this time in 2002, Josh and his parents had a falling out and they disowned him (His parents are good people, but the church they belong to have totally brainwashed them, Josh didn't deserve to be treated like this one bit). Josh moved on and got his own place. He picked up another job to support himself, It wasn't too long before an opportunity came along and Josh quit both of his jobs so he could start at ADT, Josh currently still works there and has made his way up to a great paying job. He also dated Brit for about a year before they broke up, it was a shame to see them break up but they both moved on. Recently Josh got into contact with a family he was close with before he moved out of his parents home. He is also currently engaged to a girl he knew from his childhood, they both went thru alot during their childhood and if she is anything like Josh, then I know their marriage will be wonderful one. I wish both of them of luck on their big day tomorrow. I'll see you guys at the reception next Saturday!
okay, this is taking a bit longer than I thought it would, so I'll come back to this later and finish it, plus Zoey is pacing so I think I shall go for a run with her
~C~
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Vitamin C - Graduation Song
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April 25th, 2005
09:54 pm - Someday I'll be so damn much more, 'Cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for
I really want to put something thought provoking down here, but tonight I just really can't think of anything to write. I could talk about how happy I am with Samantha, I mean she has definitely filled a void that I was missing in my life, and I know come the end of August she leaves for Denver, and that we both agreed a long distance relationship is something neither of us want. But until the day comes that she leaves, I am gonna make the most of it. And whatever happens thereafter we will always be friends.
~C~
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: John Mayer - Bigger Than My Body
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April 13th, 2005
06:48 am - Dreamt the same dreams but now you’re awake, And I’m still sleeping
I have found happiness, Samantha is truly one of a kind, I can't believe how long I kept those feelings inside of me. I love that girl
What a beautiful day
~C~
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Seven Places - Sleepers
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April 12th, 2005
12:05 am - and it seems like i'm waiting for nothing, i've been so lost since you've been gone
Well goal number one is almost set, i had an interview with both nextel and the lodge @ ponte vedra, and I basically have a choice between either one. So which one will I take, either get a decent gig as a bartender at another country club or ditch the whole food & beverage stuff and go back to selling cell phones.
and as for things with between me and Sam, I haven't done anything, I guess I really am too scared to let anyone get close to me. I don't know why, I really do care about her, I can't let a good thing like her escape out of my life.
~C~
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Nikola Sarcevic - New Fool
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April 11th, 2005
April 9th, 2005
11:28 pm
yeah well number 3 is fucked up, because I don't show those who I care about how I feel.
I'm not giving up
Current Mood: disappointed
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April 4th, 2005
11:27 pm - she's got every little thing I wanted, and it still feels just like the day it started,
My new goals are set
1.) Quit JGCC and have a new job come May
2.) Spend 2 weeks in July in Europe with Todd & company
3.) Most Important, do not mess things up with Samantha
The List is set
Anyways, as of late me and Sam have started to get pretty close, which is awesome. Samatha, is one of those girls that comes along only once in awhile. And I almost wanna just kick myself in the head for how I had treated her for the last year, as if I didn't care about her. Well anyways, we're good friends and we'll see how things play out in the future, but for the moment I'm happy
~C~
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Hawk Nelson - Every Little Thing
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March 17th, 2005
11:26 pm - Take a look around There ain't nobody home, I may be a loser but at least I'm not alone
Argh, I have never been so pissed. My laptop was stolen out of my car yesterday. There goes all the shit I need for work. Some people are such scum
Fuck!
~C~
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: G.O.B - Give up the grudge
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March 2nd, 2005
11:25 pm - I read the story one more time, of those who gave to You their lives, With no fear or compromise
First post from the new place, and its grand. I think I'm gonna like it here. Lots of room for myself and Zoey. Oh and best of all were throwing a bash next weekend to celebrate the new place and for John's last weekend here before ship duty. I would say all are welcomed, but I don't think anyone reads this anymore.
Anyways if anyone is interested we will have a keg, lots of liquor, and ping pong. Its gonna be B-E-A-utiful. 904-923-7134
~C~
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Jonah33 - Faith Like That
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February 14th, 2005
11:23 pm - Now you wanna kill me in the act of what could maybe, Save us
Damn Scott! He though it would be funny to send a message to todd anonymously, that he had my social #. So of course todd signs off before Scott could tell him he was just messing with him. So both me and todd canceled all of our credit and debit cards in fear that someone may have gotten our numbers. After we were all finished he calls us to tell us he was joking.
We are so gonna get him back when we get our new place (a plan is in the works and it is quite devilish), anyways on to the new place issue, yeah we don't have one yet. And the best part me and Todd will be homeless come Feb 28th. in 14 days. I repeat we have 14 days to find a place.
Talk about waiting till the last moment. Oh well
~C~
Current Mood: mischievous
Current Music: Coheed & Cambria - A Favor House Atlantic
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11:22 pm - You kill me up you build me up but just to watch me break
Well you're just across the street,
Looks a mile to my feet,
I wanna go to you.
Funny how I'm nervous still,
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes round by chance (Chance)
Or only one way that it was always meant to be (be)
You kill me you always know the perfect thing to say,
hey hey, hey hey
I know what I should do but I just can't walk away
I can picture your face well
from the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your fave heatmiser song goes:
It's just like being alone
Oh god please don't tell me
this has been in vain (Vain)
I need answers
for what all the waiting I've done means(means)
You kill me you've got some nerve
but can't face your mistakes
hey hey, hey hey
I know what I should do but i just can't turn away
So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Gotta take what you can these days
There's so much ahead and so much regret
I know what you wanna say
I know but I can't help feeling differently
I loved you and I shoulda said it
but tell me just what has it ever meant
I can't help it baby this is who I am (am)
I'm sorry but I can't just go turn off how i feel (feel)
You kill me up you build me up
but just to watch me break
hey hey, hey hey
I know what I should do but I just can't walk away.
Enjoy your V-day folks
~C~
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Jimmy Eat World - Kill
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February 5th, 2005
11:21 pm - Oh baby don't you wanna go, Back to that same old place, Sweet home Chicago
Well it looks like my 14 month tenure here at this apartment complex is coming to an end, by the first of March, I should be moving into a much larger place off baymeadows with Todd, Chris, and Matty. So that should be pretty sweet, and cheap too. But nonetheless, it will be a little weird not living over here anymore.
Well guess its time for a change
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Blues Brothers - Sweet Home Chicago
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February 4th, 2005
11:20 pm - The chance is gone to make the change to make me think that things are better
I honestly don't remember the last time I was this sick, it feels like i have a large rock stuck in my throat. Oh well, atleast it has gotten me out of work for the last 2 days. I'm glad I was able to get a doctor's appointment for today, I wasn't able to sleep at all last night because everytime I would I would start gagging because of my throat.
Being sick is no fun
~C~
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Edgewater - Eyes Wide Shut
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January 11th, 2005
11:19 pm - I see the one who bore all my shame, to know that you are everything I need you to be
I really hate the mind games that some chicks like to play, why do they feel the need to play them? Samantha is really starting to get to me, she knows that I like(d) her, and when we talked about the potential us, she told me that I needed to learn to be spontaneous (meanwhile we were abit hammered), and then the next day she told me I could never be spontaneous, and then when I stopped by her place later that day she told me that I was creeping her out. Ok, now here is the weird part, now she is sending me these text messages that should get together. I honestly don't want anything to do with her. I hate when people feel the need to insult my intelligence with their fickleness. Anyways time to move on.
~C~
Current Mood: irritated
Current Music: Jeremy Camp - Understand
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January 5th, 2005
11:12 pm - So you can wipe off that grin, I know where you've been, It's all been a pack of lies
Well, looks like Chris will not be going to UF this semester. I found out monday that in order to recieve credit for the classes that I took this semester I needed to meet several critical tracking requirements. One of them being that I needed to be full-time status, which I couldn't do with the fact that I was planing on still working for JGCC Thurs-Sun up here in Jacksonville. The second requirment was that I had to take 1-2 certain course that I need for my major and they were closed. The only thing that they really had was a nighlty class that would of ran mon-fri, basically screwing my work week. So basically I would loose my status as full time at work and loose my insurance.
So now for a hopefully short period of time, I have 2 apartments that I am paying for, and alot of stuff is down in Gainesville that I have to bring back up here. But wait, if you think this is screwed up, I found this out today at work, that my boss was going to let me go from my job because I wouldn't have the flexability on tues and wed. And the fucker was gonna wait until the end of the week to tell me this. So if I had decided to go to UF if there were no problems, I would of lost the job that I needed in order to pay for it. You don't even know how pissed I am about that. All the hard work I've done there I guess means nothing.
I guess everything happens for a reason, though I don't have to like it and I don't think that I have to take it. Atleast I found all the classes I need at UNF, because I can't afford to get any further behind than I already am.
So lets see how much I wasted in money
$500.00 for rent
$200.00 for a futon
close to 100$ in gas for myself and the good friends that I have, that helped me move my junk
I so could of used that money in other ways if I knew stuff would of gone down like this
Oh well, Fuck it
~C~
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Nonpoint - In The Air Tonight
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December 27th, 2004
11:14 am - I wonder why, why I'm even here at all. But then you assure me, I'm a little more than useless
Good Stuff, last night Matt, Todd, John, Scott, Kevin and myself went down to Your Place to catch Victor and his band last night on open mic, and I have to say they were quite good. Especially the cover of Jimmy Eat World's If you don't don't.
But anyways, it was pretty cool to hang out with the crew again, its been awhile since everyone has been back in town, So that was awesome. In a week I am about to start at UF, not quite sure what to expect, except that this has been a long time comming. And I think I found a great place at a decent price. I mean wouldn't everyone else jump on an add that said the house features a 2 keg kegerator and a bar? I know I am not the only one.
The only thing I am kind of worried about is the money issue, can I afford to keep a place down in Gainesville and be able to keep my rent up her in jax till march 1st? And then to find something a little cheaper up here so I can keep working at JGCC until I find another job down in gainesville.
Oh well, here's a toast to good friends
Peace
~C~
Current Mood: good
Current Music: Relient K - More Than Usless
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December 26th, 2004
03:14 am - Let's right this wrong with love today. Stand our ground but with a helping hand
AH, I think I have a explanation to my recent "suprenatural" events, Sleep Paralysis. Hmmn, interesting, if you are read this http://www.castleofspirits.com/sleep.html
Makes alot of sense, and the dog was probably just shivering from being cold, and probably did just wake and didn't realize it.
I feel better now, Goodnight to all!
~C~
Current Mood: better
Current Music: Seven Places - Fall In Line
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